Spend a few days looking at your life and the world from this idea.
In every situation consciously say the words to yourself: “I created all of this.”
Forget belief. This is about self-knowledge. This is entering The Living Oracle.
You are now looking at all things, categorizing these into the suits (The Magus exercise), and assuming your dominion as creator simultaneously.
As you become comfortable in this habit you become more closely aligned with your own knowing.
Do this before you go to sleep: relax your body, take deep breaths, all the way into your stomach and ask yourself: “Why did I create _______________?”
Start simple. “Why did I create a conflict with my co-worker today?”
“Why did I create a hording disaster in my garage?”
Even more simple ask about positive things: “Why did I create my beautiful children?”, “Why did I create my green garden?”
Let the answers come in words, images, and feelings. Let yourself know why you create the things in your life that you are aware you have control over.
Continue doing this over time and see how it expands your knowledge. More importantly, begin to notice how it expands your sense awareness. Colors will become more vivid. Shapes will become more defined. Awareness creates more awareness and gives us greater space in which to live, to delve, to feel, and enjoy.
This exercise also creates greater understanding of others and circumstances much larger than us.
After some practice with this, you may decide you want to begin to ask questions about those things which you do not control: “Why did I create a tree falling on my car?”, “Why did I create the moment so and so hurt me?”
To ask these questions is to gain greater control over our lives. This is not blaming the self. This is an exercise in discovery.
I have, indeed, asked why I created situations in which others hurt me under conditions over which I had no control. The answers that have come to me have become part of a narrative that creates a framework for feelings that once overwhelmed. Now I have better alert systems for when these feelings rise from places and experiences of my past. My psyche has a ‘sense making’ series of stories that prevent the old feelings from becoming new experiences that I do not desire.
I don’t blame myself. I make sense for myself, the greatest of all creative powers.
This is the fundamental purpose of this work, creating ourselves within our own knowledge and becoming more agile in our perception of the world and the endless, generally frightening and degrading, streams of stimulus that enter our fields.
I use this practice now to encompass all things. I asked this of myself one night:
“Why did I create the nuclear bomb?”
The answer came immediately: “I thought I was supposed to.”
And, undoubtedly, that is precisely how such a thing came to exist.
Be well. Be wise. Be free.