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Healing Circle

Published May 30, 2019 by michelleembree

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Published May 6, 2019 by michelleembree

Diary of a Dog Fiend.

The world of occult magic is dizzying and baffling in it’s complexity. The Babble-on of ten thousand voices, information overload; a web of competing systems and ideas. In a churning  ocean of sometimes meaningless language we must navigate primarily through our own experience.

Creating a coherent model takes time and a continual flow of contact with the angels, demons and godforms of your imagination.

Praxis accelerates the many faceted process called initiation. The gathering of data is less important than developing a relationship with your own higher selves. Each star must find its path. The rising of the kundalini serpent is the aim of the adept.

We are all initiates, marked by birth and sailing on the bark of Ra to the end of time.

Magic is the engine of culture. Whatever consciousness is, it works itself into the future through artists and visionaries: culture changers.

Every action causes a…

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Nine Of Swords: When Trauma Won’t Sleep

Published April 3, 2018 by michelleembree
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Nine of Swords // Hermetic Tarot // Godfrey Dowson

Cruelty and Despair is the title of this card. Deep aniexty will wake us and refuse to let us sleep. There are single nights that can carry themselves like a century of terror and pain. These nights can expand to weeks and months and years.

What do we do as a person who suffers in this way?

Western Medicine may offer us sleep aids in the form of medication and also the benefits of Cognitive Behavior Therapy. These are perfectly reasonable avenues and if they are available to you and work please take the relief and get your sleep.

There are other questions we may need to ask ourselves that are more difficult. If we suffer from the lingering effects of date/stranger rape/physical harm it is likely that our partners, parents, and friends expect us to ‘free’ ourselves, to ‘get help and free ourselves’. We are expected to achieve our well-being on our own. Sure, people offer to ‘help’ or ‘support’ but when it comes to the long haul the expectation falls back on the one who was harmed.

In the end it is true as Alice Sebold wrote: You Save Yourself or You Remain Unsaved.

This often means asking questions you don’t want to confront or making changes that are fundamentally unfair. Whether you are dealing with a crime or with emotional woundings from limited or cruel caretakers ask yourself if you are making too many compromises in order to maintain relationships:

Are you pretending in order to make your partner comfortable?

Are you fufilling family obligations that have no other reward aside from avoiding punishment?

Is your therapist prepared to move you beyond sleep aids and anti-depressants or is this the solution despite your desire for natural sleep and serotonin production?

Do your friends listen to you? Your partner?

If you see metaphysical practitioners do they focus you on forgiveness when you are not ready or willing?

Are your practitioners and friends punitive or rejecting of your anger?


Sam-E is an over the counter medicine that really does help regulate mood and sleep cycles.

Get up at the same time everyday no matter how much sleep you lost.

Keep wi-fi devices out of your bed.

Get the TV out of your bedroom.

Avoid excessive caffeine and sugars.

Get out of bed rather than toss and turn.

Recognize how many things your mind is throwing at you. Often you are in pain because of a big trauma but your mind throws everything at you from what Sally said in the third grade to the person who cheated on you ten years ago. Recognize this.

Breathe and focus on getting a good nights sleep before falling asleep.

Once you hit the bed, your mind should be focussed on sleep rather than problems.

Let go of people who dismiss you, bully you, don’t listen, or otherwise confuse and gas light you if this is possible.

Sleep alone if it is best for you.

Use lavender on your skin or in a difusser

The only time to use a wi-fi device in your bedroom is when you are listening to whale songs or other healing frequencies.


Passion Flower

Kava Kava



None of these will solve your problems, but every effort we make to help ourselves will lead to greater efforts to help ourselves and to find practitioners, friends, partners, and actions that hold and affirm our humanity and value.

You are loved. Period.


If you are dealing with those traumatized by crime or the deep wounds made by limited or cruel caregivers it is imperative to recognize the cyclical nature of the traumatized mind and emotional systems. The above may be helpful to your clients in taking care of themselves, so please share.

There will be periods of time when your clients are operating at optimal levels of ‘productivity’ and enjoy a sense of ‘well being’ and then there will be times when this is not the case and their worst ‘symptoms’ are on high.


Remind clients/patients that they do not always feel so bad.

Remind them that the perpetrators are to blame, that ‘being there’ is not a crime or a reason to harm.

Remind them it is not their fault.

Remind them again.

And again.

If your client has ‘triggered out’ in your care it IS YOUR RESPONSIBILITY to know what to do and to return clients to the present moment. It IS YOUR JOB to ensure their safety before they leave your care.

If you are dealing with ‘borderline’ individuals make sure you are qualified to take such clients and/or that you desire to do so. Not all therapists/metaphysicians accept ‘borderline’ clients. If you choose to do so, make sure you have the tools.

If a client triggers:

Allow them to use their own words to describe their state of mind.

Remind them they are safe and are heard.

Breathe with them.

Offer water and take time out from talking.

If they need to yell, let them.

Offer a pillow for punching.

When the wave of physical distress has passed ask them to name five red things in the room. Then five yellow. Then five blue. (or whatever colors are prevalent in your office)

Breathe with them some more.

Ask them about the temperature of their body. (A ‘trauma hole’ can cause the body to register temperature in odd ways, asking will help both of you to assess where the client is within the re-experience).

Once the body has relaxed ask these five questions, five times over in rapid succession:

What color is your shirt?

Who is the president?

What year is it?

What is my name?

What month is it?

These questions reorient the client/patient to the present moment.

As a practitioner you have every right to decide the kinds of clients you are willing to accept. If you do not feel comfortable working with PTSD, C-PTSD, or Borderline clients then do not do so. It may be a question you ask off the top when you are approached by those seeking help.

Have a list of practitioners willing and educated in doing this work to refer to those who are seeking help you do not have to offer.

If I may be of assistance to you as either a client or a practitioner seeking consultation on upgrading to Trauma Informed Approach you may text or e-mail your request.

THANK YOU to ALL of you who take the time to care for yourselves and others and who are always looking to exceed limits and grow as individuals and practitioners.

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Cosma (21)

Published March 28, 2018 by michelleembree
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Thoth Deck // Artist: Frieda Harris

Cosma or Cosmos is The Great All and All. It is the whole beyond our comprehension. Whether or not we feel freed or lost by the realization that we exist in a continuum of infinite progress and regress, of endless expansion and suppression, depends upon our acceptance of a non-linear experience.

We do not climb ladders or clear bars, we do not become better and better until we are reabsorbed into something grand and peaceful but rather we continue to experience and re-experience and experience and re-experience.

We are the fall and we are the falling, we are the sun and the moon, we are the clock on the wall which is nothing other than an infinite jest, the most complete joke known anywhere on the body of time.

Cosma is that body. A landscape of time and place of momentum and position. The flow of time is an illusion like all other illusions and we comfort ourselves in birth and death, in experience and re-experience.

You are the leader, you are the healer, you are the condemned, you are the drug addict, and the mentally deranged. You are the lover and you are the beloved. You are the hero in a real sense and you are the monster that all believe to be the hero.

You are the one. You did it and you suffer it. You did it and you rejoice in it. You are the light and the shadow. You are the good and the evil. You are the killer and the savior.

When we go very deep we know the worst of us must be stopped and the best of us must be valued beyond what we most fear in ourselves.

When we go very deep we know the worst in us must be stopped. Think about it and return again to the empty heart, the new life, The Great Fool.

We know the worst in us must be stopped. We may love the worst in us the same as we love the best in us, if we like, but whether you love it or not: THE WORST IN US MUST BE STOPPED.

Whether Cosma feels like freedom or it feels like a never ending scream through nothingness depends entirely on how willing we are to pick-up our course, square our shoulders and say: YES. I WILL STOP YOU. Yes. I will.

Welcome, welcome to the full real and back to the beginning (as if such things exist) back to The Great Fool and this time you are committed to making value of what is the very best of you personally and of your human kind.

May you choose the wisdom that brings The Great All and All to an alignment wherein greater satisfaction and beauty may rupture and flow like lava taking everything in its path.



The Call (or Judgement) 20

Published September 18, 2017 by michelleembree
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Book of Keys // The Call // Artwork by Michelle Embree


You have come a very long way by this point. You have struggled through circumstances and limits of self. You come to see the different sides of yourself and hopefully you have noticed your relentless contradiction.

You have covered long and diverse territory and now comes The Call.

This voice raises you up from the worst places you have ever been. It pulls you out of the fog of your worst insistence. The Call comes from some distance though the voice is clear and rich and terribly real.

This Call comes for your talents and gifts either long known or only now emerging. The Call comes at the precisely correct moment, precisely the correct intersection. You are neither ahead nor behind. The Call comes and it wakes you in the places where you have developed within yourself. You are neither ahead nor behind though you are not yet finished.

The Call comes and you know for certain that you are the only real obstacle left.

The Call brings with it the challenge to step into your greatest strengths and talents. The Call brings with it the challenge to manage and overcome anything left within you that seeks sabotage. The Call brings with it the challenge to be present.

With The Call comes true challenge. You are now no longer focussed on the power of your rivals but the ways in which that power will be spent in action against itself.

The Call comes to announce the challenge to become fully realized and to act on that realization.

You rise now along with what you will. Every Major Arcana behind you will be represented in small ways as you proceed. You will be required to use the lessons you have learned and the tools you have gained as you pass through each again.

This is not a test. You are needed in full integrity and prowess.

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THE SUN (19)

Published September 22, 2016 by michelleembree

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Embodiment of the Solar Consciousness


Ask The Sun

The Sun, above anyone

To tell you the reason

It circles the skies

To tell you the reason

Fire needs Rain

Ask The Sun

The Sun, above all others

The reasons inherent in a thing


To come to a decision

To bring action to the decision

To bring the genuine spirit into action

To bring about the action of alignment

To bring about navigation of course


The Sun brings with it dark shadows

A sharp contrast for all that can be measured

The Sun teaches us paradox and retreats again

The Sun feeds life and serves The Moon

Standing by in reflection, a promise kept every night


The Sun analyzes and retreats

The Sun feeds and retreats

The Sun heals and slips away 

The Sun protects and stands down again


The Sun knows the force of the power of itself

And gains the highest regard as a god

Of restraint– a god of self mastery.


The Sun rises to give us well-being

To bring us to decision

To motivate us into action

To illuminate our work for our own corrections

The Sun rises to offer us light and food

The Sun sets to honor the dreaming hours


Look carefully at those things that will not wake.


The Moon (18)

Published September 20, 2016 by michelleembree

The Moon from The Book of Keys Deck; Michelle Embree


Embodiment of Lunar Consciousness.

The Moon is companion to Emergent Change.

This is the light that taps the seed at the moment it breaks ground.

The Moon, the Lunar Consciousness, has the sight to see what is yet to be.

The Moon welcomes what has struggled into survival.

The Moon welcomes what will grow to face The Dawn.

Our stark contrast between positive and negative.

Our insistence that reality polarize itself for us, is challenged by The Moon.

Institution is challenged by The Moon.

Hierarchy is challenged by The Moon.

Caste is challenged by The Moon.

All that depends upon sharp contrast is challenged by The Moon.

Challenged by how the shadows fall, how darkest can hide a thing.


What has been making its way to the surface is ready to make a crack in the soil.

What has been intuited all along will find form.

The Sun bows to The Moon to prevent the death of all things.

The Moon is required same as The Sun, as Saturn, and Jupiter.

The Moon is required same as any star, any planet, any god at the table.

The Sun bows to The Moon to turn all things from death.

Make no mistake: The Moon is required.


The Moon may indicate a difficult stretch of road.

Heavy emotions may take form.

This is the right light for these emotions to surface.

This is a gentle light, a quiet moment on a hill top.

A cycle that returns again and again.


Mind the qualities of the cycles you return to on faith.

Mind the qualities of the cycles you return to by habit.

Mind the qualities of the cycles that trigger your intentions.

Mind the qualities of those things you defend again and again.


Honor the constant of change

Deceptions be revealed.

Honor the constant of change.

Tend to the welcome

of Night Bloomers

And Morning Birdsong, too.

Change is your Great Gift.


xxo all the very best to all of you as you move through this life xxomichelle

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